One Month Later

As predicted I am at least physically well again. I feel like I’ve finally gotten into a good balance again, where I am not stressed out and exhausted all the time, and I have a little time in the course of a week for my own pursuits. It’s been a long time since I’ve had this kind of equilibrium, so I don’t take it for granted. I am doing my best to enjoy it, while keeping one eye open for the next shoe to drop.

It’s possible that I will be the shoe. I might get pregnant again (we aren’t necessarily trying again yet, but we’re not strenuously avoiding, either). We might finally start making moves on the move. And, if nothing else, I have a project that I’ve mentally committed myself to finishing by the end of the summer – regardless of if I have to drop other work unfinished – that is going to take a lot of focus and dedication to complete. My GOAL is to finish revising the novel and send it off to betas who can then take their sweet time with it, and shift focus to the other, but if I can’t get the novel revision finished in the next month or so then I’m going to have to abandon it again in favor of the new one.

Really it’s a new old one – another piece that needs to be revised and expanded but that has a solid base from which to build. It’s not a romance, nor is it something I will directly be discussing here much. It’s a project that I think would actually benefit from being traditionally published, therefore it would be done under a separate name and not one that I would cross-reference in either direction. I have thought long and hard about how to handle it. If it’s as good as I think it is (and as a friend who is knowledgeable in such things says it is) then I might be able to gin up an auction from several publishers – and THAT is a scenario an agent would be helpful in making happen. I have a short list of agents I would be willing to work with, and a list of editors who have shown a passion for this type of book to approach directly if none of my acceptable agents are interested. I would still be entering any agent and publishing negotiations with self-publishing the book as a fall-back position. There are certain terms that would still be deal-breakers, even if some that I would not accept for my romance career would be okay for this one-off project. I am genuinely curious to see if anything comes of my attempt to find a trad-pub home for this project, both in terms of publisher interest and my ability to actually sign away rights and control.

I don’t know how regularly I’ll be blogging this summer, but I am finding myself with posts I want to write bubbling up inside, so perhaps I can at least get back to once a week or so. Onward and upward!


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Muggin’ Down with the Sickness

It’s been a quiet few weeks here, and it’s probably going to stay quiet for the next little while. After almost a year, motherhood has caught up with me. I’m run down, sick, exhausted, and exasperated with my lack of ability to fix any of the circumstances creating those states of being. Changes on the horizon in the next month include weaning the baby off breastfeeding (I have never wanted to go beyond a year, or at least not further than a gentle weaning by stages would necessitate) and me getting over this damned virus by virtue of a month from now being a month from now, and surely by then my immune system will have gotten its shit together.

In the meantime, I am focusing on controlling what I can – namely, and sadly, jettisoning all activities other than those related to day-to-day living. No blogging, no sewing, no writing. I read a few posts over the weekend about people who “got it done” by whatever means necessary, ignoring their kids, neglecting their spouses, driving their health into the ground by staying up as late as they had to to write those 2000 words for the day, and it just sort of hit me: I can’t do that. I love writing. I love finishing books. Both are intrinsic parts of who I am at this point in life. But I am not going to kill myself to do them.

Right now, for this little stretch of time, I need a goddamned break, and the only part of my life wherein I can get one are the obligations I foist on myself in pursuit of a larger dream.

So if I’m quiet for a bit, this is why. I’m spending my energy killing off bronchitis, or walking pneumonia, or whatever the hell this is, and my evenings sleeping instead of trying to force out a few hundred words after a day at work and an evening of chores, when my hands are trembling with fatigue. To hell with that. I wanna live.

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There Is No Time; Let Me Sum Up

This one’s for A. And I am shocked – shocked, I tell you! – that I have never actually written about this before.

In a perhaps surprising turn of events, high school Lily – who was already aware of her destiny (determined to make it a self-fulfilling prophecy?) as a novelist and working toward amassing her writing toolkit – never made a perfect score on the verbal section of the SATs. She did on math. Why? Because math* has only one answer. (*Math at that level, obviously; I know when you get deeply into experimental/theoretical maths you can find ambiguity.) There is no personal bias in the answers, nothing but hard numbers and A-E to be selected from a binary system of “right/not right.” The verbal, however, at least when I was a teenager, included a section that very much was open to individual interpretation: the main idea questions. “What is the main theme of this piece?” “Which sentence best summarizes the selection?” Invariably, I got at least one of those wrong. And why? Because what I took away from the reading, coming to it with my biases and my experiences and my INTJ way of looking at the world, was different from what the person who wrote the question did.

Finding the main idea of a work is hard, because it isn’t obvious – and sometimes it has more than one “right” answer.

Common wisdom in writerly circles is that it’s often hardest for the person who is closest to a book (AKA the author) to accurately describe what it’s about. I understand the reasons why that is said, but I disagree with the premise that a writer cannot attain enough self-awareness to see their own work clearly.

I would compare it perhaps to trying to describe your own personality. You know your own strengths and weaknesses; you know your own intentions. What you don’t know is whether what you feel on the inside is what is reflected externally in your interactions with others. Having someone else describe you can be enlightening – and sometimes befuddling or even horrifying. So asking a reader to describe your work can also be helpful. For example, if you don’t read romance genre books you might not know whether your novel with strong romantic elements could be marketed as a romance. A friend who reads romance would be able to give you that answer.

But ultimately, as a writer you know what’s at the heart of your story. You know what it’s mostly about.

So how do you go about turning that knowledge into the back cover copy, the book description, the pitch, the blurb – whatever you want to call it – in order to find your target reader?

Here are the elements I think need to be considered:

1. Who is your target audience? Could be a subset of genre readers, or “a reader like me” – as long as you can define what you mean by “like me.” For example, I know my audience is fans of historical romance who want more realistic stories and loves built on a believable foundation. I am also aware that my current works would also appeal to fans of the traditional Regency novels (AKA the category romance), so I will keep them in mind as well.

2. What is the genre or category for your book? If it’s not a specific genre, think of what award category it might fit into (women’s fiction? Novel with strong romantic elements? Etc.).

3. What is the tone of your book? Light and frothy? Darkly funny? Tragic? Introspective?

All of these are going to affect the tone of your blurb. The voice of the blurb does NOT need to be the voice of the novel, but it should be in the same color palette. Think of the scene in Robin Hood: Men in Tights when the Sheriff of Rottingham is trying to deliver bad news in a good way. You don’t want there to be that kind of disparity between the tone of your description and the tone of the book.

Now you have to decide if your book is the kind of book where you lay out the main conflict in the description, or hold it back for dramatic effect and use only a premise hook to get readers to try it out. Once you decide that, you need to figure out what the selling point of the conflict is going to be.

Kat Sheridan has some really great pointers for writing back copy, and the one that’s stuck with me most is to focus on the external goals and impediments of the characters, and how their interactions will escalate the conflict.

You also have to decide if you are going to discuss all the protagonists or just one (assuming you have more than one). Most romances give equal time to heroine and hero on the back, but if the story is really one character’s journey (even if your book uses both as POV characters), the description can reflect that.

When you talk about your characters in the description, it’s important to focus on the parts of their characterization that actually affect their situation or the conflict. Stupid example, but I’ve seen this used – the only reason to mention eye color is if there is a prophecy about it or a death sentence on people of that eye color. Otherwise it’s wasted words to say “blue-eyed Cristabel had a hundred suitors” instead of…well, either nothing or any of a dozen personality characteristics (picky; vain; shy) that might either shed light on why she has that many suitors or why that many suitors is a good/bad thing for her.

When you talk about the conflict, avoid both cliches and overly broad statements. I have lost track of the number of blurbs I’ve read with a conflict described something like this: “…but when a dark secret from her past threatens to come out, she has to make a choice that could change her life forever.” Um. So what’s it about? Obviously in that case the author didn’t want to give away the dark secret because that reveal is part of the book’s narrative tension. Fine. The conflict can still be described in concrete terms.

There are a few other description do not’s in a post I ran ages ago about free books and why I don’t download them even though they are free.

I actually really enjoy writing summaries of my stories. In some ways it’s probably easy for me because I write in romance, which is a genre with a pretty easy formula for back copy:


Sum up her situation in life, goal and obstacle.


Sum up his situation in life, goal and obstacle.


Are they the answer to or author of one another’s problems?


I really enjoy distilling my characters and stories into sound bites. Sometimes doing so helps me clarify what is really the most important theme of a story, or what the real conflict is. (This is helpful when I have started a story that I don’t really know where it’s going. NaNo 2013 book is one such, where I wrote the heroine’s back copy in order to figure out her point of view on the world.)

One exercise I’ve tried, that doesn’t necessarily help with the back copy, is trying to sum up the themes of your novel in a word or two. After my post about that, I decided the themes for the never-ending revision project are split loyalties and choice. Decide for yourself if much of that ended up in my first attempt at back copy for Anything But a Gentleman:

A Resourceful Ex-Debutante

After two years of exile from the ton, Lauren Stevens has decided to reclaim her life.  1818 is a new year, and within a month she manages to lose her virginity at a masquerade, win a fortune in fabric on a wager, and set up shop as London’s hottest new modiste.  Her new life is exceeding her wildest dreams, until a devil’s bargain puts her repeatedly in company with her gentleman landlord. He makes her finally regret the future her scandalous past has made impossible.

A Reluctant Businessman

Lysander St. James can’t afford to make any mistakes.  His father has beggared the family, his sister still needs to be presented to society, and the only thing standing between his family and debtor’s goal are the rents his properties accrue.  He is dumbstruck to discover the woman he mistook for a courtesan at a masquerade is now his best tenant.

An Inconvenient Attraction

Lauren Stevens has disgraced herself in every possible way–she is the last woman Lysander could ever consider marrying, no matter how much he wants her. Fate seems bent on thrusting Miss Stevens into his path, however, and he finds it increasingly difficult to maintain his distance. Lauren is not the lady he needs, but she makes him want to be…

Anything But a Gentleman

This covers maybe the first third of the book in terms of plot, and just sort of skims over the details about why she’s scandalous and in exile from society, why his family dynamic is the way it is, and so on. It doesn’t get into the fact that as the book progresses, her personal situation changes, which affects his willingness to walk away from her. This is a book where the hook conflict is not the entire conflict, but it is more than just the inciting incident. However, I could probably also write a back copy that only deals with the first 10% of the book. I’ll give it a go right now.


Lysander St. James is delighted to find a courtesan waiting for him at a masquerade. He’s spent the last year in abstinence in order to win his sister a dowry. His friends owe him more recompense than just the money, and a woman who might literally be a fallen angel seems like just their kind of lagniappe. He is only too happy to let her lead him from the ballroom and under her skirts.


Lauren Stevens is a woman on a mission: find the man who ruined her in society, seduce him, and by so doing ruin his marriage to the lady for whom he abandoned her. She executes her plan without a hitch, until its fatal flaw is revealed: The wrong man was behind the mask.


When Lysander’s friends swear they hired no such female, he fears he has dishonored a young lady of his own class, to whom he now owes a marriage proposal. But his desperate search of the party turns up no lady and no leads. How can he offer her his name when he doesn’t even know hers? She might have run from him, but his honor demands he find her, or forever know himself to be ANYTHING BUT A GENTLEMAN….

Meh. I like the first one better, but the second isn’t bad. If he spent more of the book not knowing who she was, I might prefer it – but he finds out within a few days what her name is, and the real conflict is that he can’t be associated with someone of her reputation, so using a description that focuses so much on the inciting incident might give a prospective reader a bit of misdirection in terms of what the book is *mostly*  about.

In both cases I think the tone of this particular book is captured. ABAG is a serious but not melodramatic/super-angsty historical romance novel. It’s not light and fluffy and funny, but neither is it an epic hurricane of crazysauce or adventures. It deals with class anxieties, social expectations, and duty to family. The descriptions are straightforward (rather than funny or melodramatic), and they touch on at least some of those themes. No one is going to feel like they got sold a false bill of goods if they buy the book based on either description.

Writing different descriptions for the same book can help identify the most compelling parts of it. Focusing on different parts of the conflict helps winnow out the irrelevant details and red herring obstacles. The back copy is your chance to highlight the thing about your story that would make YOU want to read it – since, presumably, you are part of your own intended audience. Most importantly, send your cover copy to friends you can trust to give you a straight answer with the subject line, “Would you want to read this?”


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The Mama Bear Edit

This novel is going to require a second editing pass – both a proper line-edit, and also a putting back in maybe a little bit of what I am taking out. I feel like I am cutting almost as much as I am keeping, and though that’s an exaggeration by the numbers, it still feels weird to highlight entire paragraphs and hit “delete.”

I realized tonight that in my first draft I put way too much in, and in this draft I am taking out a lot, maybe even too much. Making this revision the Mama Bear edit. The rough draft was Daddy Bear, which is everything too much. Now I am doing everything too little.

Guess that means draft three (post line-edit) will be my Goldilocks draft, not too much and not too little but juuuuust right.

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Finished Sample

Having cleared the world’s thorniest sex scene hedge (and there is enough distance between writing it and now that I can say, yeah, I got it!), I am forging ahead in my rewrite at a good clip. I am up over 10,000 words, or a tenth of the novel at its post-diet word count projection. That is basically the section a prospective reader would be able to sample before being forced to commit to buying it. Word is still out from the friend I sent it to as to whether she’d buy based on that section, but I can say this – I would.

I am actually quite pleased with how things are coming together. I have a lot of love for this story and these characters (I’ve spent over three years with them, now, off and on but never entirely out of mind), and getting into these revisions was hard because I felt like I had made so many mistakes in the rough draft. It’s an intimidating amount to have to correct. But now that I am in the thick of it, I am enjoying the act of re-visioning. I have a lot of great material, if I can just cut away the excess obscuring it. I have a lot of themes I am layering in, and the whole is going to be like romance novel baklava.

The list of work to be done is still a mile long. It is still too much to hold in my mind at once. But the parts that have been edited excite me. The parts that need to be written excite me. I can’t wait to get this one finished and out in the world so everyone can enjoy it, most of all me, and that is hugely inspiring to put in the time after my husband and baby are in bed for the night to keep working.

After all, well begun is half done – and I am definitely started.


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By Jove, I Think I’ve Got It!

It only took, in the end, five tries and six sessions to write the first sex scene I expect to publish.

I got it from an original ridiculous 5,ooo words to a practical 1869…enough detail to be interesting, not so much as to be tedious. I think. I hope.


Is that…worth celebrating? I simultaneously feel like the scene should have come easier (ha!) and am terrified I’m going to have to re-write it yet again.

Maybe also there is fear that I will have to start Chapter 1 over from the very beginning yet again.

I think I like this version…but I’m also worried there’s a bit of Stockholm Syndrome going on with it, or just exhaustion with trying such that I’m settling for the current iteration simply because I am out of patience with it.

I am literally making this face about it, is what I mean:

I think I love my draft?

Which is maybe not the healthiest place to be.

I am just worried about this opening because normally openings come on an inspiration – to be fair, this one has a prologue that did – and I have never really had to sort of search and flail about and test different variations before finding the right thread to start with.

I am worried about having to do it over because I am so fucking sick of it AND because I am really excited to get into the meat of the story, both new scenes that are replacing old inadequate ones (events-wise, I mean, because I dropped a sub-plot) and tweaking extant scenes to better suit the themes I decided were most important after seeing the thing as a whole laid out in Scrivener. I am genuinely excited about the raw material I have to work with, and so ready – so very, very ready – to get to those parts and get this whole into coherent enough shape that I can enjoy reading it. Because it’s a story I’ve been waiting…

**stops for math**

…three and a half years to read! Actually more like 5 years. It’s been three and a half since I started writing it, but I’d had the kernel long before I started writing it out.

Well. Nothing else I can do about it tonight – I’ve shot my load (heh) word-wise and can at least rest easy knowing that I trimmed the inciting sex scene enough that it won’t be more than half my sample, and possibly a good bit less than half of it depending on what the revised final word count is.

Now THAT is a noble cause!

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Predestination: Time Travel Mindfuck of the Year


Predestination is a recent (2014?) low-budget independent science fiction movie that released with little fanfare in my movie-watching circles. I am not even sure it had a theatrical run. It stars Ethan Hawke (and convinces me that he, like Scarlett Johansson, is secretly a nerd, because no one accidentally makes more than one philosophical SF movie) as a man who can travel through time as part of a tragedy-prevention bureau. His job is to prevent mass tragedies, not minor personal ones; you don’t risk the butterfly effect for one person. He is nearing the end of his career (a person can only make so many jumps through time before they go insane), and chooses to “retire” to a point in time where he can perhaps still catch the one criminal he was never able to stop.

If this scenario sounds like your sort of thing, I suggest you stop reading this review, go watch it, and come back here so we can talk about it, because I am about to spoil the entire thing in order to discuss the philosophical concepts it brought up and its plot structure. The movie is well made, and it uses physical effects instead of CG and gets bumped up at least half a letter grade because of that. It is small, yes, but not obviously indie in the sense of being amateurly filmed, acted, or produced with obvious monetary corners cut.

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